Spiritual Gaming Co

I wish that I could turn back time to a frame of mind; when love was sweeter.
I wish that I could bite my tongue instead of using words that cut much deeper.
I wish that I could kill my pride and look at my reflection in the mirror.
I wish that I can speak my peace to help you understand things clearer.
I wish my thoughts would fade and ease; ride my mind of fear and terror.
I wish your love was real for me but secretly it's becoming scarcer.
I wish my heart could express its pain; regret of all the words exchanged.
I wish I didn't feel deranged; twisted, broken, full of rage.
But I wish to never place you in a cage or dim your flame.
I wish to never leave you scarred and bruised; feeling misused.
I wish I wasn't terrified and afraid of you losing faith in me and you.
Most importantly.
I wish I wasn't terrified of losing you...