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My thoughts race

My eyes wait

To grace your angelic face

 

My chest pounds

My heart flutters

My stomach tightens in knots; I brace

 

Fear of rejection

Deal with Insecurity

Fear of being Ersatz

 

I pace myself

For an unknown embrace

Anticipation has me in a daze

 

Our fates are bound

Our souls connect

Your love guides me through this
dismal maze.

 

My love and heart

My body; my soul

It’s all for you to have and hold

 

Hold it steady for years and months

Through moments and days

Or let me go; I wait appraise

 

Stressed and hurt

Our emotions change?

Our lives unfold; disarranged

 

Are we flames?

Are we mates?

Or are we destined to only maim?

 

Are we deranged?

Cause each other pain

Or am I to blame for pulling away?

 

Cold

Closed-off

Full of dismay

 

Time wasted

Games played

We can chalk it all up to fate?

 

But wait…

There’s so much I want to say

To scream and shout; cast pride astray

 

Or should I save it for another day?

With all that’s at stake

I may, I might, one day, someday, today…